Critiques are hard.

“In our culture, the term “criticism” has acquired negative connotations. It has become synonymous with ridicule and denigration for many people. So, it’s no wonder many students experience apprehension about having their images critiqued. To mitigate these fears, we need to make clear to our students – and to ourselves – what we mean by “criticism.” Here are a few definitions I have found useful: Edmund Feldman, noted art educator, defines criticism as “Participation in informed talk about art.” I think “informed” is the key word here. Morris Weitz, philosopher, defines criticism as “The use of words to facilitate understanding art.” Terry Barrett, art educator, defines it as “Describing, interpreting, evaluating and theorizing about art.” To these I would add my own definition: “The application of critical thinking methods to understanding art.” Critics can do any or all of the above activities but you will notice that drawing value judgments as to whether a work is good or bad is only one part of a critical review.”

Last night before my film critique, I felt the most apprehension that I’ve ever felt before showing my work. I don’t know why, but I did. Not only did I worry about the final all during the filmmaking process (about four weeks for this project), but I came out of that last class feeling completely, utterly spent and exhausted. And like I’d been run over by a Mack truck. For me, I would say this is the hardest part about being in grad school; the constant, neverending undressing-of-yourself-in-front-of-what-seems-to-be-the-whole-world that is the critique process.

I know that I’m a better designer now than when I started this program and that these critiques are the main reason for my improvement, but it’s hard. It’s emotionally draining to stand week after week and have people tell you, for the most part, what is wrong with a piece of work you poured hours of yourself into. I’m so glad it’s Christmas break. I haven’t really had absolutely nothing on my plate since last Christmas and I’m excited to be able to just sit and stare at the wall if I feel like it. Or, post to my blog a lot. 🙂